October 5th 2012
They were our daughters. We saw them grow each week from the second we saw them lying side-by-side in the womb, to the moment the ultra sound technician showed us their faces on the monitor, we knew that they would always be a part of us. A part of her.
Six years have passed-by and yet, there will be a year seven and eight, without knowing who you were outside, the life we saw inside, the womb of your mom. And now your mom is gone too. She is in heaven, holding you the way I held you the day you were lost forever. I hope the warmth we transferred to you through our love and care, is now being given to you by your mom as you gaze down upon me from heaven.
Although you aren’t here for me to watch you grow you have grown in my mind, in my soul and in my dreams.
Gabriella, I hold you close. I run my hands through your hair and see your mother in your eyes. I rub your face and kiss your nose. I tell you I love you as I did the first day I held you in my arms same as the last day I had to give you back forever.
Sophia, I hold your hand and rub your fingers and toes, that look just like your moms. I kiss your cheeks and rub my hands along your face. Your green eyes as beautiful as your dads. A space in my heart will always be hollowed out, the day I handed you (both) to the nurse.
Time has passed, but the thought of you will be everlasting, until it is my turn to leave this earth. No matter how many people tell me about the healing power of time, the days and months turn into years and your memory still brings me to tears, while others have forgotten you as these years will eventually multiply into decades, proving, that the one and only true thing about time is, that it waits for no one. How cruel it can be.
Your birthday's here and there isn’t cake, no wishes to make, or toys waiting for you this morning when you wake. But I know your in good hands in heaven because, mom is there to open the gift of love, just as it would be if we were all here together celebrating your day with good old fashion laughter, cheer and a little happy birthday song, that you'd have to sit and listen until it was done.
The years have passed without you here but you will always grow in my mind into the beautiful ladies I knew you’d always be. Now, you have your mom to celebrate this new year.
Until I see you just remember, your always here, in my heart.
Until I see you just remember, your always here, in my heart.
With Love.
Happy 6th birthday Sophia and Gabriella
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