The Adventures of Captain Imperfecto

May 26th, 2012 No two people grieve the same, I think. It's been a few months now since our loss. Every time I think I am getting better, I fail. I just need a cure. I still wonder if this is how it is with everyone who mourns. The ups and downs of feeling good about yourself. You can go a week or so and feel your pulling through the darkness, and then fall right on your ass, twisting your body and laying flat on your damn face. It's grueling. You feel like you're living in an enduring black hole. The good weeks feel like a tease. An appetizer before the sorrow is served. I'm going through the motions of life day in and day out, but the only difference is that my daily routine is not my choosing. It is my necessity. No matter how I feel, my boys need me. Some mornings, I wake up to a vibration in my head, rattling the oxygen right out of my brain, cutting off my blood supply, and a lightheadedness kicks in. Even though I feel lightheaded, my head bobbles around l...

*To Read Entire Series Click Here May 25th, 2012 I decided to tell this story because it was a pivotal loss we had between losing the twins and the birth of our oldest son, Nico. It was a trying time for her and I. That stretch of time tested everything our relationship was about and everything it was going to be. We were desperate to heal ourselves and try to replace the loss we suffered on that terrible October morning in 2006 when we suffered a double loss of twins the morning we were scheduled to give birth. Mimie was very strong but strength can only last so long.  There's Always Time: Be Positive Part III                                                                                          I can't tell you why I wan...

May 24th, 2012 Starting Disney with our march to The Pirates of the Caribbean has been our tradition. Our tradition because we went there the first last time we were here a few weeks ago, and we are doing it today, first again, so it's going to be our tradition. Mimie and I love The Pirates of the Caribbean ride. The atmosphere seems so natural. It truly is a magical ride that takes you back to a place in time and discovers a world other than the current one you are in, even if it is fantasy. As you pass the squealing kids and heavy chatter from the hordes of people standing around Adventure Land. The music you recognize from the movies begins to reach your ears. Violins and chellos being played at a rapid succession. The woodwind family joins in as the flutes, piccolos, and oboes intermingle with the string quartet. A ting of a triangle is played like the baseline. It's fast and choppy, but it excites the inner kid in you because it indicates that the adventure is abou...

You are here: Home » A Pirates Life for Me I May 24th, 2012 My Disney passes were about to expire on May 23 rd , so I loaded up the boys and took them for a little bit of Disney Magic. My mornings are the same like all my day breaks. I wake up and I have two lives laying on me from the night before. It’s going to be difficult to break the boys of the habit of sleeping with me on the couch, but yet I still allow it. I haven’t had the courage to sleep in the bed I shared with Mimie. But that’s a whole new story in itself. Lets just stick to the “Magical World of Disney”, for now. The couch is uncomfortable. I can’t really move into too many positions on its narrow width. The seat cushions are fine, but when I remove the back cushions to add a little more space to accommodate more bodies, like my boys, I’ll lay sideways with my back against the back of the couch. With those pillows off it exposes the thin layer of cloth that covers the wood's 2x2 plank that lays pa...

*To Read Entire Series Click Here May 23rd, 2012 I decided to tell this story because it was a pivotal loss we had between losing the twins and the birth of our oldest son, Nico. It was a trying time for her and I. That stretch of time tested everything our relationship was about and everything it was going to be. We were desperate to heal ourselves and try to replace the loss we suffered on that terrible October morning in 2006 when we suffered a double loss of twins the morning we were scheduled to give birth. Mimie was very strong but strength can only last so long.  There’s Always Time: Getting Results Part II I had just found out Mimie thought she was pregnant. I ran out to the store to get her a pregnancy test to confirm what she already knew… The pregnancy tester is white and about six inches long. The participant removes the capped end to use it, revealing the tip you pee on. There is a small window that has a square embedded into it. Once you pee...