Yes, I'm Lying Down |
One hundred stories published and over one hundred thousand words written on these pages, as if each letter was a tear that was shed from my emotions and found its way onto the screen. I never thought our life would become this big and resonate through so many people. I did not think that this would matter to so many people.
In the beginning, I did not understand why The Adventures of Captain Imperfecto would become so meaningful to so many people around the world in the different ways it has. But as that fact has time to simmer in my mind, I am grateful and humbled that it has.
I wrote to vent, to laugh, to shout, to remember, to cry, to let those in, who I otherwise would never have let in before. These words speak for so many. From moms and dad, friends, brothers and sisters, to all walks of life, my words have hit a nerve of expression for lots of people.
Words comfort you when you’re all alone. Words let you feel again. Words set you free. Words remind you of things that once were and are memento’s of times of our lives, much like music to your ears; words are music for your mind. Words give you vision and enlighten your senses with hope. Hope is a good thing. Hope is salvation. Hope is the one thing that we have that allows us to move forward because it builds confidence in us that there will be a better tomorrow.
When you sit in the dark and you’re by yourself with just your thoughts and the only sounds you hear are the ones that go bump in the night, don’t be afraid of the unknown that give you those goosebumps and chills down your spine. Don’t be afraid of the noises around you. They are the familiar sounds of life that once filled your home with the joy you shared with the ones you loved. Be brave and face those things that frighten you. Be familiar with your surroundings and embrace the emptiness that has gutted your insides so that when you do see the light, you’ll have the courage to fill the space again with things that made you the person you use to be and the person you long to be again.
Set backs can knock you right on your ass. It’s not an easy sight to see your dreams broken before your very eyes. Like a hurricane moving though your sole, there is nothing but debris to clean up after the destruction has moved on. But you rebuild. Like dirt that has settled in layers to blur your vision, you sweep it away, so you can see again. The waters that have sucked down your momentum will recede so that you may gain traction again. But it’s hard, so damn hard to see the good, so damn hard to think things will be okay again. But you have to clear out the anger, bury it in the dirt that you wipe clean, and drown it in the water before it recedes, so it won’t consume you.
Whether its baby steps, long steps, waddle steps, short steps everyone walks the same. The walk is long and lonely and in the end it doesn’t matter what kind of steps you take. You just have to place one foot in front of the other, plant your foot down hard on the surface and push forward, followed by the other foot and so on. I started my walk. I began with words and a blank sheet of paper. I started to rebuild with a blog site in hopes to heal myself never dreaming that it would help others. I’m not there yet, still far off but I will find the strength. Even if it’s one step or even one letter at a time.
Here’s to another one hundred thousand words.
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Christopher Fusaro. The author of Captain Imperfecto.
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